"I write everything down except what's on my mind"

neither of you were what I expected
and I'm still trying to find out what to expect
how do I know that you're not the same
I'm tired of being surrounded by sick people
but I'm spending more time trying to make sure you're okay than I am myself
how do I keep from getting burned.
when I'm juggling with irons
and you won't stop looking at me like that
please close your eyes.